Agents of Transformation

Having passion is not enough. Having the willingness to suffer is not enough. You need to be trained before you are ready to be an agent of transformation.

Start off by laying down your pride. Don't care about saving face or protecting your reputation. We will be challenged in this area over and over again. I know there have been times where I didn't want to admit I was wrong because I cared too much about my pride. This does nothing but destruct and everything could have been mended quickly if I just stepped down from my prideful pedestal.  Check yourself. You don't need to be doing things for the favour of people, so don't be afraid of being embarrassed. When you realize that things aren't about you and that you can't doing anything on your own, your faith will rise to a new level. He doesn't need us, but we need Him.

Training of our character. Many of us live double lives but we should just be ourselves all the time. Breakthrough your shame. Don't wear a mask. If we don't change our character, our actions or our attitude then people may not believe the words we say.

I think I've gotten better at bringing my personal life and spiritual life together but there could still be improvement. Sometimes I'm still hesitant to share my faith with people I don't know very well. Other times I don't want to share my personal life with people who share my faith. I'm afraid they will judge me. I don't want to explain things. But I need to remind myself that their judgement doesn't matter. I don't need to explain and I don't need to have everyone on my side. It's tiring having to put up a front with different groups of people. I'm human. It's okay to mess up so I shouldn't need to hide anything. Problems can't be fixed if they're never put out on the table. There should only be one side of me out in the open all the time, the real side. I'm the only one who can be the best me that I can be.

Sometimes we all need a little reconciliation to build up our relationships. When we reconcile with one another, there is unity and comfort. At times, all it takes is some explaining to fix hurt feelings or disagreements. Know each other's hearts.

Don't fear the lonely place. Don't fear hiddenness. Love this place because this is where you are being shaped with the utmost care. You are never forgotten. You are not walking alone. Don't give up. Once you are ready, you will not only be put forth to shine but you will be slingshotted. You must rely on Him 100%. Stop using your will to do things. Focus not on your own agenda, but His agenda.

I don't always enjoy being in the background. There are times where I want to stand out. But I need to be willing to let Him do the work. I need to step back and let Him perform the surgery, do the operation. I just need to be patient. It's going to be difficult at times; it's going to be dark; it's going to be lonely, but I won't give up. Apart from Him, I can't do anything.